When night falls, I feel exceptionally uneasy when my surrounding is in complete silent. Besides the sound that comes from the incessant churning fan blades and the water that comes sliding down into the little man-made water structure at the balcony (near my room), my room is seemingly quiet.

To fill the empty void, I resorted to watching whatever videos that I've interest in (update: 97 subscriptions to date).

I'm exceptionally grumpy today because I had a hard time falling asleep last night and had slept intermittently only to realize later that the sun was rising - few rays of sunlight beaming into my room.

So I read a little and before I finished the chapter, I found myself dozing off. I guess a little reading does help in calming my nerves when I imagine myself in a virtual world.

I came to a realization today that I'm in fact quite an insecure person in general and I... feel that no one has time for me. Like now.

I'm so easily excitable now. Who knows why this is the case at this unearthly hour - 3ish in the morning. Probably the fulfilling day I had earlier on makes me a little more joyful. I met my good ol' friend and 2/3 of the fav girls. I ate well.. Ok snapshots to be included in another entry.

Pardon me, I tend to digress from the intent topic when little angels are hovering above my head. Heh

Now that it's June, we're almost half done with the year and before I realize, the new year commences. A new year will usually suggests that my birthday will be coming soon since it falls in the very first month. Uh ok turning 21st next year. They're just numbers, right? RIGHT!?!? Can't be helped to get slightly more paranoid when it comes to aging.

Every now and then, there'll be an amber light being flashed in my brain to make me pause and think how I've come to where I am now. Have I grown for the better? Have I hurt others with blunt words? Brought any laughter and satisfaction to the loved ones? Well generally, how have I changed.

But I guess I shall not bore you guys out with my reflections.

 This past year has been treating me well. Let's recall, shall we?

The first month of the year saw me turning 20, second month was spent finishing school before I rested for few weeks.The rest thereafter was a well deserved break from the 3 long academic years and it was definitely welcomed and embraced with the widest arms. 

Later, I found myself getting anxious for not attaining a job but I was in luck. I landed on a job from April-May and I worked in an area of work which I studied for. Remuneration wise, it has got to be the best among all the handful of jobs I had since my first job when I was 16. I'll never forget this. 

May was spent pretty much tasting something sweet - life. My body clock was terribly screwed and all I do on a daily basis are to laugh, watch (shows), eat, sleep. I have been dreaming so much in this month but we shall skip this.

 I'll begin a new routine pretty soon for a new whole month. I like how my life has been ever changing for this year. Well that's on a positive note.  

Let all these positiveness remain. Pretty please?

Uh this post will not jinx it.

So I shan't ramble in the beginning like I usually would since this post is pretty self explanatory given the title. But here's some insights if you'd like to know how my day went.

Here we go!

To sum it up, the afternoon was filled with photo takings (evidently as shown above), squinting my eyes so hard from the bright rays of sunlight, perspiring so much since it was approx 31deg out, feeling short because I decided to chuck my worries behind, live in comfort and wore my trusty black flats out and finally, chatting with few of my classmates over a cup of thirst quenching soft drink till evening.

And this is from the bottom of my heart. That is, I'm sincerely touched to see these familiar faces again when I was collating the photos. When I first stepped into the school again, I felt a little intimidated. No idea why either and really thanks so much to those who approached me for to have a photo taken together. It means the world to me because...well I've never been a social butterfly and it's just not me to know a bunch of acquaintances so I'm really grateful when it comes to acknowledgement from people who know my presence on this earth. It's my gain in this journey to know you guys!

YAY! I've officially graduated from the school. Well by means of official since I've gotten the cert and whats not. I spent my night collating photos for keep sake. Heh

Anyway, many people smiled to me today. Ah ok kidding. That's because I was behind the camera for a handful of time so people would smile to the camera. Ok bad joke! Still, life's good for now!

The temperature out there as of late has been a torture. Wait, torture is underestimating it. In fact, it's like BURNING sensation. I'm not kidding you. As a result, I've been exceptionally grumpy and whiny and well, consequence is my poor parents have to resort to receiving my constant complaints. 

Having air conditioner on in my room on for 24/7 is definitely not the solution so... tonight was spent (to a far extent, for fun) looking through portable fans. My dear friend here was exceptionally hilarious. Well the story is there are portable fans out there on sale and they do give off mist so it provides cooling sensation besides the basic function of generating wind. The other friend here was saying that it might ruin makeup so the former friend was incredibly funny. She suggested to put mac fix + into the place where the liquid is contained so the mist that is released is the fix +. This aids in giving the cooling effect and at the same time, fix makeup. HAHAHAHA Mel, you're awesome. Serious!!

So that's the story for the night which made me laughed for a good whole minute. It was a hearty laugh by myself in my room. You girls are awesome! Hahahahahahahahhaha

It isn't an intention to post everyday but it just so happens that I've something to pen down, in this case, type out about something that is held close to my heart.

Tonight is a pretty hard one.

Anyway, the thing is my bro is away now and we were talking over whatsapp. I suddenly recall that back then when I was around 14, I was glued to maplestory. Does this name ring a bell, anyone? As I was saying, I pestered him to buy me a maple prepaid card which I believe is a card whereby you spend cash money to buy the game's cash card so that you can purchase the cash items in the game.

Do you get what I mean? I'm bad at description. If my memory doesn't fail me, it's around $18 (Was it?) and back then, this amount is a lot because I don't have any earning capability. My bro wasn't that old either so it was kind of too much for him to fork out this sum as well. Finally my bro agreed to pay for my very first and last cash card because since young, I've never given in to spending real money on games. But that was an exception because I literally spent a majority of my time back then hitting the 'c' button on the keyboard which is equivalent to hit. Well, I hit mushrooms and... some doe eyed greenish looking creatures in some dungeon.

So 6 years later, I'm so overwhelmed with gratitude for such a memorable childhood (or probably teenage) memory. Thanks bro. :')